Waiting for my ultrasound. Nervous but prayers are abundant. I am thankful. Here's a couple from 2 women I've never met nor do I know their names:
Our baby is beautiful. He's a perfect 2lb 14oz big boy. I love him. When the tech did the 3/4d images I couldn't thank her enough. My husband and I will never again be at this place in our lives. Our ultrasounds have been accreta 1st, measure baby 2nd, accreta 3rd. Purely medical and rightfully so. This is the first true glimpse of our baby. It has helped me so much in bonding with him. I know it takes the surprise element out of birth. But I will not be giving birth. Having this baby at 34 weeks is essential to my survival and morbidity. I will be put to sleep before I'm cut open, from above my belly button to pubic bone. I will not catch a glimpse of him, hear his first cries nor touch his pure, brand new skin. We will not know each other until day 2, if my surgery is uneventful and he's stable. I expressed to this tech that she has given me such a wonderful, life long gift. A healing gift, a gift of bonding with my baby.
It's hard to see on this pic, I realize. Once I have some time, I'll compile all my pics, complete with markers as to what is what. I'll make it a separate post, spare y'all having to sort through my ramblings :) .
"God's hand is on her womb, her team and on EVERYTHING that will touch her...physically and emotionally. To Him be the glory!!!"
"Phew. I just read her blog. Oh,Father, bless this mama. Give her strength and endurance. Help her feel Your presence and peace. Make the time sweet yet swift so she can be back to snuggle all her little guys and their new little love. Help her and her husband fall even more deeply in love and for them to be strengthened by this experience. Protect her baby, Father, with lungs developed and fully functioning systems at birth. Growing this little one outside the womb as well, strong and healthy. (Through fierce tears) I pray you give her courage. In Jesus name,Amen."
Thank you so much for everyone who is thinking about, praying for us and sending us messages and text messages. I thank you! I hope to be able to bless you all with pics of baby and I when this is all over. We couldn't do this without your prayers or our faith. Thank you for petitioning on our behalf.
I'll update after our appt.
Update, first and most important:
Now for the not so fun part. Percreta with suspect bladder invasion, possible abdominal invasion. Won't know the depth of the accreta (pun intended ;) ) until surgery. My placenta is abnormally large. It takes up my right side and almost the whole front of my uterus. Which would explain why I can't get comfortable at night nor eat more then a small portion of food. Here's a pic of my placenta. The black spots are veins and a lot of them. I'm thinking my placenta isn't much of a filter for this baby, his layer of fat screams "moms fast food craving stops here!" Poor kid. The black long spot at the top, your left side (under the horizontal wavy lines, which is my abdominal wall) is healthy uterine wall, going across it disappears suggesting my placenta has grown through to my uterine wall. Whether it has completely gone through remains to be seen. I didn't get a pic of the accreta by my bladder. Dr Lee did that portion of my ultrasound and I didn't dare distract him with my accreta nerdiness :) . Here's the pic:
Summary: I will be admitted on 5/7, they will take blood from me every 3 days. I will meet with all the specialists and find out their roles in the OR. I will get to know the nurses who will be taking care of me so after surgery I will know who's who and they all will be familiar with my case. I will spend the night in ICU after surgery. Unfortunately I will be awake when they take the breathing tube out, Lord help me! But at that point I will know I'm alive! I will probably be trying to cheer and demand my baby but it will look like a thrashing mad woman. That's ok, nothing like the feeling of being alive :) .
Baby and I will be in a very family centered, skin to skin, breast feeding first type of hospital. So I hope to have him skin to skin as soon as I'm moved out ICU. In the ICU they do have a tv monitor where I can watch my baby at all times. How cool is that! Hubby will FaceTime me so he can hear my voice. How important those first hours/days are after birth. This little guy and I can do this, I'm confident in The Lord, He will see us through this. I'm preparing for a struggle with breast feeding. Any tips or donated breast milk, just in case, would be tremendously helpful :)
I just can't get enough of him :) . Thank you for the continued prayers that are flowing in. Thank you for being the Light of our Lord and Savior during this difficult time.
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