Skip to main content

Posts

An 11-Year Update: Rediscovering Myself After a Life of Fertility, Family, and Fighting Through It’s been 11 years since Gabriel was born—and today, I’m finally sitting down to write something just for me. Not a to-do list, not another doctor’s note, not a reminder for one of the kids’ activities… just me, checking in with me. This journey has been long, beautiful, painful, messy, and meaningful. But if I’m honest, it’s taken its toll—on my body, my mental health, my physical health, and my marriage. I became pregnant at 16. That experience shaped the trajectory of my life in ways I couldn’t have imagined back then. My world quickly became about fertility, pregnancy, and motherhood. I became fluent in charting my cycles and listening to my body in ways that most people never need to. It became who I was. Over the years, I had 8 beautiful children of my own and carried 2 more as a surrogate. Ten children. Ten stories. Ten miracles. For so long, my identity was deeply rooted in th...
Recent posts
The Journey of a Fighter: My Son’s Story of Growth, Grit, and Greatness Today, my son is 11 years old. He’s full of life, confidence, and energy—the kind of kid who wakes up ready to fish, swim, ride his bike, throw a football, and dominate in Fortnite (he’d want you to know he’s in the top 0.5% of players—yes, he's that good). But behind his bright smile and love for adventure is a story of quiet resilience, strength, and an extraordinary journey that I feel so honored to share. When he was a baby, he experienced about a six-month delay in his physical development. We brought in an occupational therapist weekly to support him. Week by week, we watched him grow stronger, steadier, and more confident. His spirit never wavered—he just needed the time and support to bloom at his own pace. Before he entered kindergarten, I homeschooled him. Those early days are some of my most cherished memories. He would sit with his pencil, so careful and proud of each letter he wrote. When he fi...

Kizoa Video Maker: Placenta Accreta Survivor

I made a slideshow honoring Gabriel's 1st birthday and my 1 year Accreta Survival. 2025 Update : the statics in this video are outdated. Placenta Accreta Spectrum is now 1 in 272. TRIGGER WARNING : In addition, at the end of this slideshow I have included photos of my uterus after surgery. These are graphic and not sutable for some viewers. I do include about 5-8 seconds before the photos are shown to give viewers time to close our the video. Please use caution when viewing.

It's so good to be home!

The past 2.5 weeks home have been great! I'm tired and get sore easily but nothing like snuggling your children and cuddling up in your big, comfy bed.  Elias, our 19 month old, didn't remember me when I walked through the door. Actually he didn't warm up to me until a week and half later :( . Poor little guy. About 4 days ago he crawled up on my lap and snuggled with me. Something he used to do before I left. It filled my heart with joy. I've missed him.  Gabriel is doing great! Eating every 2-2.5 hrs ...not so great in the middle of the night but he's thriving! His discharge weight was 5lbs 8oz, 4 days later he was 6lbs 2oz! 10 days after that he weighed 7lbs 4oz and 19.25" (he was 18.5"). All from momma's Dairy Queen :) He's doing amazing. So proud of our little guy :) Elias loves giving his little brother kisses and hugs. At first Elias was a bit freaked by his brother's noises. He would observe him from a distances and just stare at him. T...

A bump in the road

Well more like a huge thud! We hit a deer 2.5 hrs from home :( . After emotions ran high and the shock subsided, Roger and I prayed. We prayed The Lord would lead us to a garage. My husband needed help pulling the fender off our tire, I was unable to help due to my surgery. So we noisily crawled to a garage 3 miles away. A gentlemen by the name of Clayton, from Clayton's Garage, stood in silence as he looked my husband up and down. Clayton is very much a country man, maybe even a mountain man. He's had 5 wives, 6 children and 12 grandchildren. He proceeded to tell us how he became an alcoholic and compulsive smoker...which is how he looked so young for 59 ;) . He hooked the fender guard up to a winch and pulled. Thankfully that was all that needed done, immediately. Now the other damage...well, we see an insurance adjuster Friday for the other stuff but the important cargo was all safe and sound!  

Reflections from the last 8 weeks

Galveston, TX Pavilion for Women Texas Childrens The day after Easter when I was admitted for preterm labor. My Iron Man Emergency surgery 5/8/14. The team was assembling. PAIN! But alive! First time holding Gabriel First night without the NICU, a hotel on the way home.

Going home!

For the first time, our son has breathed the outside air. We are going HOME! Gabriel is a mighty 18 days old, 35.6 wks gestation. Weighing in at 5lbs 9oz and 19" long. I plan on getting a post put together of all our answered prayers. Of all the ways The Lord has so obviously taken the lead in this uncertain journey.  I'm so humbled by all the support and prayers from people all over. In the past 3 months my blog has gotten over 3500 views. My journey through Accreta has a purpose. Loosing my uterus has a purpose, the trials, the uncertainties, the joys of overcoming such a condition as Percreta has a purpose. It's all for the Lord's glory. He's big, He's here and His plan for my condition is not over. I have a story to tell of how faithful, merciful, patient and loving our God is. When I had nothing else to give, no more energy to research, no more tears to cry over leaving my children, I had no choice but to surrender. No choice but to crawl into the...